One hell of a week..and I really mean one hell of it.

Moodswings at its peak really...buay tarhan...
And the fact that I NEVER get moodswings adds on quite a bit.
Scary.

Sent ivan off last wed.which actually almost killed me at some point in time,but yes.
The image of him walkin in after passing the departure gates is clearly etched in my mind.fuckin rollercoaster of emotions larh.
So happy for him..yet terribly depressed. I have no idea how to describe it. It's one of those you have to experience-then-you'll know kinda thing.
Was crying my eyes out like some horribly drawn-out kid. I mean oh come on, you didn't actually expect me to stand there,smile broadly and wave like a robot!
...I couldn't do it even if I wanted to..i was absolutely brimming over with tears by that time.couldn't even speak a proper sentence besides a few words here and there.but at least I managed to stammer out the important stuff while my lips were quivering and the wave of tears washed over me.i was that emotional.i couldn't help it lar.really.cannot.help.it.one.
hmm. it'll be a damn long time before i actually get to see him again. next june or july? around there i guess.
....hmm.but it was alright after a while.regained my composure. Blah.
Yes i'm still countin my blessings everyday. =)

Stayed home pretty much most of the time last wk.due to the fact that I was dreadfully flat broke.and that I was just plain awfully lazy. The rainy season even gives me more of a motivation to stay at home,slack, and sleep the day away.oh and night too.
Barely did anything eventful,OR USEFUL, besides the fact that I packed my room.but fuck larh, my room is in a semi-mess already. And it has been what? 4 days? Forget it already.
I prefer the messy feel,gives me a cosier kinda feeling.ppl pls don't slap me.pls don't. I swear I'll slap ya back.

I'm surviving quite well at home,given the amt of shit i'm putting up with. It has come to this point where either I take it or leave it.and sadly I chose to leave it. I know it's "politically incorrect" and whatsoever,but fuck it larh. I just couldn't care less. Although I know I shouldn't.blah.

I got back from a movie with tong and simon at lido just now. No comments.
Was great finally being able to meet up with them,what with army and all.
And yes I think I should cut down on reading tabloids.i don't even know what's true or not these days. And the headlines are getting totally outrageous. And I mean OUTRAGEOUS.jus check out the national enquirer or star.atrocious. Then you'll get my drift.the paris-paris split was totally unexpected. And everyone in LA is getting smaller and shrinking before our very own eyes. I'm damn sure it's not Photoshop. Lol. I read somewhere that Photoshop is somewhat a verb already. True,in a sense if you think about it.

Ivan called me today using his recently purchased calling card. From what I hear, rates are pretty darn cheap over there. I mean, that's the first time I've ever heard "cheap" and "London" in the same sentence. Thank God he got much MUCH better accoms, if not he would be positively dying everyday. The walk to and from school would jus kill him. Or even the cycling. The distance is really...disgustingly far.
But yeap.really glad that he has settled down and all, but got tons of other stuff to finish.madness.

There was this one day when I felt so distant,so lost,so vulnerable...
Stupid moodswings.Hit me out of nowhere. Like a slap on the face. Girls. Urgh. Hey I still am a girl..afterall. LOL. Oh wells. Was pretty rough for like an hour,then yes like passing rain, it was over.heh. I'm quite stumped by how my moods fluctuate like nobody's business. Freaky.

I'm having hols now,til like Nov 7. Gonna hunt for a job to while my time away I guess.
And I need to quit spending so much! I NEED TO SAVE!

Spent ass-much last month,but all for a good reason. - Food. =)
Yea larh basket eat eat eat. Eat like no tomorrow lidat. Burnt an enormous hole in my pocket too. But it was worthwhile. I'm still raving over Fullerton's chocolate buffet. Gonna head there again I hope, but I gotta wait til I have the urge. I'm keeping off chocolate for a month.

It's almost 5 in the morning. Keeping awake for I have no idea why too.

I guess maybe the reason is you.